I am a mother to a beautiful baby girl. The day she came into this world my heart changed. It beats stronger, louder, and is more brave than it was. It beats with the intent of living for that incredible heart within her. It beats to protect her. It skips beats when she smiles up at me and aches in my chest when she is hurting. I could never have anticipated what would happen to me that day I first held her in my arms. I could never have anticipated what natural childbirth would really be like. How incredibly delicate I would feel at the same intensity of feeling immensely strong and powerful. I had NO IDEA how strong I was, and not just me, but every woman. Every pregnant woman’s body is designed and preparing throughout their entire pregnancy for that big day. Every woman holds within her the power and the strength to deliver her child. Virginia Di Orio said, “Just as a woman’s heart knows how and when to pump, her lungs to inhale, and her hand to pull back from fire, so she knows when and how to give birth.” I believe her. I believe there is nothing you need from me, but support. Everything you need to know is within you.
“The power and intensity of your contractions cannot be stronger than you, because it is you.” ~Unknown
I do not remember when I first had the desire to give birth to my babies without medication. To be totally honest, I was terrified to give birth at all! Let alone without something to ease the “pain”. Beyond all of my fears though, I knew deep inside that my body was created to do this. I wanted to let it do what it already knew how to do. I reminded myself over and over of the billions of women who have done this without an epidural/spinal block or anything beyond the strength within them, and I wanted to know what it was like. I wanted to feel that. So I made up my mind (putting on a tough face, knowing very well how nervous I was). All the while getting a lot of commentary from those around me. I can’t recall how many responses of “ARE YOU CRAZY!!?”, or “Yeah, you say that now! Just wait till you feel a real contraction.“, or a sarcastic “Good luck with that!” with chuckles from anyone in earshot. Thankfully I was the type of person that this fueled my desire and gave me motivation to prove them wrong. Each time these comments arose it renewed my determination, and I am genuinely thankful for them because of what it did for me.
To make a long story short, and to tell you what you have already assumed, I did give birth to my daughter naturally. I waited until she was ready. I went into labor and had her without any interventions. I practiced something called Hypnobirthing throughout my pregnancy by reading their book and doing their relaxation techniques on my own. I believe it helped me to stay calm and as relaxed as I could be. I chose to birth in a hospital, because this felt right for me. I chose to lay in their birthing tub and use a birthing ball throughout my labor while my husband used pressure points to ease my contractions. My room was quiet and calm. My birthing experience was very peaceful and I had only my husband and nurse in the room throughout, and it was exactly how I wanted it. I will share her full birth story here under the ‘My Story’ tab.
The reason I am sharing what I am with you now is not to tell you that you need to do anything the way I did. Your birth experience is yours, you get to chose what you want and what makes you feel comfortable and good about the way your baby comes to this world. I am very well aware that I could have had her any way and it would have been just as miraculous. I don’t discredit anyone who chooses something different than me as being less than me. I only want you to know, if you desire to have a natural vaginal childbirth without medications YOU CAN and it can be wonderful. No screaming and shouting profanities like they do in the movies. It doesn’t have to be that way and it wasn’t for me.
I can’t tell you enough though, how much it meant to me to have support from those people who either had done it themselves, or believed in me. Those relationships were priceless to me and I could not gather up enough emotional encouragement. I have created NATURAL BABY UTAH for that reason alone. This is your place to come to renew your determination for a natural birth in whatever context that means to you. At 4:00 am. when you’re staring sleeplessly at the ceiling AGAIN wondering if you are “strong enough”… or “ready enough”… this is where you can come to hear those words over and over if you need it. Yes, you are strong enough. Yes, you have this in you. Yes, you are ready.
“We have a secret in our culture, it’s not that birth is painful, it’s that women are strong.” ~Laura Stavoe Harm